YERRRRRRRRRRR...ight so I promise not to get all Twitter philosopher on you but my professor went on a rant about finding your passion and was just dropping gem after gem. A few days later my friend went on snap and talked about finding something that makes you happy and running with it (s/o to Rose....go get ya cut by her @boldbyrose). This whole idea of "finding your passion" is definitely a recurring segment on Late Night Convos with Ant. (S/O to deep ass conversations at 3am). As a 22 year old tryna finish school and figure out life...this shit is SCARY. Im happy for those who have already found their passion because this shit has definitely kept me up at night. (Or maybe I'm just a weirdo and like to think about shit like this..eh). Not knowing what your passion is or what you wanna do for the rest of your life is OK. I will admit I can be stubborn and I'm not so quick to follow my own advice, but if you're in the same boat then just chill. Its okay for us at this age to be confused and not know what we love and wanna do forever. Don't get me wrong though, there are things I LOVE doing...for example: this blog brings me crazy happiness ESPECIALLY when I know more than 2 people read it (LOL) and when people hit me up telling me they LOVED it. Making people happy and them enjoying my content is hands down the best feeling in the world bro. This is something I am definitely passionate about, BUT since it's not where I want it to be (visually, successfully, etc.) it still stresses me out. You have to remember that its a process though, you just gotta ride the wave till you find something you really love through trial and error. To be completely transparent with you guys...one of my biggest fears in life is working some random job and being miserable for the rest of my life. Finding this "passion" is a lot easier said than done...so for those who haven't found it (you are not alone TRUST me) try tuning in on things you actually like doing. You can first start be filtering everything you hate... so if it's school or being a cashier, or anything you don't like doing then thats obvs not gonna be it. Once you filter shit out, try focusing on what you do when you are supposed to be doing else. For me, it's writing these blogs or tryna figure out what content I wanna put out next. It could be producing music or watching make-up tutorials, whatever THAT thing is, start searching deeper into that. Who knows, you might find that your passion stems from that. I know for those who are lost how annoying it can be trying figure this out but its worth a shot. Try new things, open up your mind, stop going through the motions, and try to figure this out. Go buy that new camera you wanted, go eat some ass for the first time, go make that song...whatever it is JUST GO DO SOMETHING. Look, it wont happen over night and you will have days were you are not tryna deal with this and that's OK. Im not an expert on this, I still get insecure about this blog thing. I have days where still worry about what people say about it but like I said JUST RIDE THE WAVE BABY, you have nothing to lose!!
LOVE!
- ANT x DAAZED X TONYTOOWAVVY