BACK JUUU HEARD

The coffee shop I usually go to is closed so Im here sitting at Starbucks SICK because I just spent $8 on something I can barely pronounce and a kind bar. The whole granola game is fucked up, no granola bar should cost more $1.50 but thats neither here nor there. Wowwowowow I forgot how much I missed writing to all 4 of you. S/O to you who are reading this and if you are new to these blogs WELCOME... glad you took the time out to read  about some random stuff that I wrote. If you are a grammar freak I apologize in advance.  I keep these very "organic," if you will. They gotta play better music at Starbucks man, I feel mad sad right now listening to songs that should only be played in Kohls. I once tried to be slick and thought I can get a Nike tech suit for the low at Kohls. Boy, did I play myself... for some reason I thought those depressing ass grey (grey/gray?!) bags meant that everything was for the low there. anyway..

The kid graduated HAAAANNN !!!! Im not going to hold you, I was so scared about graduation because I had no job lined up and my whole college experience was not your "typical" college experience. But none the less, I graduated and here I am.. trying to do this whole adult thing.

Everyone always came at me with the  whole "so whats next?" ...man do I HATE that question. Im not going to lie, trying to figure out post grad life, passing my classes, working 2 jobs, and trying to create new friendships really kept me occupied and so I slacked on this content. Like I said, my college experience was not your typical SO of course I waited till last semester to make friends and stuff. I just wanted to take advantage of my last couple months of undergrad because I knew that this post grad life is REAL. Take all of that and sprinkle some scheduling issues with Vin and Dro (the 2 dudes I make vids with) with a splash of insecurity and you'll get the PERFECT recipe for SLACKING. 

I know most people ignore my "link in bio" posts and I don't have any following BUT Its not a good feeling knowing I'm slacking on something that really makes me happy. So I am here to tell you that... ITS OKAY if you slack and if you don't have everything figured out. Like I said before in a past blog... I still don't know what I am doing but I just have to keep pushing content and learn as I go. The first step for me was making myself accountable. It is easy to just point the finger at everything else and play the blame game. Im learning to take accountability for my actions and realizing that I am in more control than I think. The next step after taking accountability is trying new things and figuring out how to better your situation. We are all different and have different paths SO for you It may not be trying to balance trying to find a WHOLE "real" job and trying to get this content off. Whatever it is you want to change, start taking accountability and go make your situation better. It wont happen overnight and you will fall (TRUST ME I KNOW) but you just gotta dust yourself off and try again. LOL okay I'm not low those are Aaliyah lyrics...THEY JUST WORK SO WELL HERE AND THAT SONG SLAAAPS PA. Seriously though, even if you fail and get discouraged... ITS OKAY. Just keep it pushing, trust the process, and don't give up. 

Okay okay, I know I sound like a Twitter philosopher so I'll stop now. I just wanted to get this off my chest and hopefully put some fire under your ass if you are going through a similar situation. If you made it this far in the blog just know I LOVE YOU. 

THANKS 

- Daazed